Saturday, January 30, 2010

star crossed lovers

why is it not socially acceptable to forgive a lover that may have strayed. or one that may have told a huge lie. or one that completely fucked you over. its your life. your decision. not one of you knows what it was like to be in anyone elses relationship. to know the love that does exist. to know the need for each other. your society of friends base everything on the bad things you tell them...the tears you cried and the drunk nights they cared for you. but what are friends for if not to catch you when you fall. let me fall. let me make that decision to fall. let me experience the most intense love i have ever. let me break down when he strays or when he chooses drugs over me. to be in his arms is worth it all. society says that makes me stupid. i know me better than society does and i want to feel love even if in the end he kills me. ive already died inside...let me feel love once more.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

maybe it is that we think you deserve better

Dana said...

We do think you deserve better. Ill be there to catch you when you fall but not from the same cliff over and over. Not only do you suffer but everyone around you does also, your actions affect the people that truly care for you more than you will ever know.

Dyson said...

i promise you all i will not be falling off that same cliff ever again. yes i WAS talking about "him" but i was also trying to generalize it about forgiving wronged lovers. i know what my previous relationships have done to my friendships and that will never happen again. i just want to fall in love again and i hope that people may be able to forgive me...the lover that did wrong. idk.

Gabriella Loren said...

I have made the same mistakes repeatedly in relationships, and always seemed to fall in the same patterns with guys who only cause me to break down and fall apart even more than I already had in the past. Sometimes love from someone who isn't completely available, or who will cause you pain in the end, somehow seems more appealing than the guy who will never leave. At least that is how it is for me. But I am also the type of person that feels better because of pain. It's a bit cynical.

No one wants to see you hurt, and that's why the people around you will probably be dissappointed with your choices, especially if they are repeated. But sometimes it's the pain that we need more so than the love that fades.

Anthony said...

Sometimes it's just hard, as a friend, to watch you forgive someone that doesn't deserve it. I've been on both sides of the fence, and you know what, I'm not going to be forgiving again or allow someone to hurt me. Maybe years down the road if someone changes and it's a different time and place entirely, I'd consider talking to them again. It has to be starting over though.