im so embarrassed of my behavior over the last few years of my life...nah fuck it, my life. im seeing a change in me. i feel it. i feel my stomach curl thinking about the things i have done. it wouldnt be possible to go back and apologize to everyone but sometimes i wish it was. i think that would make me feel even worse to look someone in the face and tell them sorry for all the dirty rotten shit i did. shit. i guess my reputation is true. i guess i "earned" it. i dont want to own it anymore. its time to wake the fuck up.