i fucking hate

i fucking hate your smile. your twisted cynical smile that in turn makes me smile when i dont want to.
i fucking hate your eyes. your heavenly colored, mesmerizing eyes that draw me in everytime i look into them.
i fucking hate your laugh. that contagious laugh of pure happiness, something im immune to.
i fucking hate your addiction. the addiction to everything but me, i wish i could be a white powdery substance , a video game, your work so that you can consume yourself with me.
i fucking hate your kiss. that perfection wrapped up in lips, which will be the death of me.
i fucking hate the fact we are perfect together. perfect destruction that feign for.
i fucking hate how you constantly correct me. always making me believe im wrong. wrong in loving you.
i fucking hate that i can not live without you. i cant even consider to do so. i will continue to hate you and love you till it either destroys me or makes me.
its not what you think.