its a constant loop of "fuck you". life that is. you get a little and it takes more. i have had a good go for the past couple months...whats next to come? should i be prepping. stocking up on gallons of confidence and sand bags full of self worth. charge up my smiles and grins in case they may soon run out? maybe ill go hide out in the basement full of memories to re-condition myself back to who i was. prepared for the worst.