slowly its becoming clear that im nobody. look at me. where am i in my life. i want to find a meaning. i want to find something that can entertain me endlessly. i need to finally figure out where my life is going. do i go to school for this or that...take this shit job or that one. i just dont know. this "calling" everyone talks about i cant seem to find. fuck me if i find it cause i dont have the funds to school myself in it anyway. i dont have the time to do so either. fuck it.